It seems that I enjoy working on other people's projects more so than my own completely original ones. It takes a lot of time and effort to have and maintain an idea. It's just easier to help out others who's ideas are already near the final stage. I think that's why I struggle so much with scripts. I've worked on 3 extra projects these past few weeks - tried out different equipment and generally getting a feel for how the whole production works.
It's made me realize - that I really do enjoy my chosen role. Now onto my documentary next week, and hopefully soon, my own short film.